Climax, the Story of My Heart

As you don't know, I just experienced a pretty nasty breakup. We went from being kissy lovey in the morning to being text-terrorists with sundown. Neither one of us thought to call the other to clear up the misinformation/miscommunication caused by the texts (for the record, no one can hear your joking tone on a cell phone screen so a joke in bad taste is just open for misinterpretation). The anger over the texts led to deeper things being revealed and the way I felt could pretty much can be summed up with one word: shit. Actually, this phrase works better: lost as shit. Because I was. So. Lost.

It all happened so fast; It was like I'd been standing inside that Lion King wilder beast stampede, looking for a naked tree to hug, and, at the end of the rush, I was staring at the lifeless body of Mufasa, er, I mean our relationship. Flat-line. No chance of revival. He just let me go. Just like that. *Snap* Boy, how stupid.

Anyway, in the midst of my tearful tsunami, I heard the new Usher song, Climax, on the radio. I thought he had ripped a page out of my heart and sang its forlorn words for the world to hear. It's become the theme song to my short-lived first romance (yes, first at the age of 31). And the craziest thing about it all, is that the night we definitely broke up (Valentine's Day) is the day Usher released the song. How fitting. See the lyrics below:


USHER -- CLIMAX LYRICS.
Going nowhere fast.
We've reached the climax.
Were together, now we're undone.
Won't commit so we choose to

Run away. Do we separate?
Don't want to give in
so we both gave up.
Can't take it back.
It's too late; we've reached the climax, climax.

I've falling somehow, feet off the ground.
Love is the blow that keeps raining down.
Where are you now when I need you around?
I'm on my knees but it seems we're

Going nowhere fast.
We've reached the climax.
Were together, now we're undone.
Won't commit so we choose to

Run away. Do we separate?
Don't want to give in
so we both gave up.
Can't take it back.
It's too late; we've reached the climax, climax.

I gave my best, it wasn't enough.
You came and said we argue too much.
We made a mess of what used to be love.
so why do I care, I care at all, at all, at all, at all.

Going nowhere fast.
We've reached the climax.
Were together, now we're undone.
Won't commit so we choose to

Run away. Do we separate?
Don't want to give in.
So we both gave up.
Can't take it back.
It's too late; we've reached the climax, climax.

You say, it's better if we love each other
separately.
I just need you one more time.
I can't get what we had out my mind.
Where are you now when I need you around?
I'm on my knees but it seems we're going

Going nowhere fast.
We've reached the climax.
Were together, now we're undone.
Won't commit so we choose to

Run away. Do we separate?
Don't want to give in
so we both gave up.
Can't take it back.
It's too late; we've reached the climax, climax.

Yes! Yes! Yes! That's exactly how I felt and still feel a week and a half later. There's no turning back. No making up. I'm not that forgiving and I don't think he is either. We're too much alike for apologies. And too different for reconciliation. I would be utterly amazed if I had to eat those words. Anyhoo, enjoy the song below.

QoMV